Reject is a compilation of songs that illustrates my struggles and insecurities. It’s a very personal record that took a lot out of me to put to words. You could think of it as a journal or a diary of sorts.
When Suffocate was written, it was the first song that we had ready at the time. On the surface I just wanted to write lyrics about how much I hate myself. But that soon turned into an illustrated battle between myself and an entity. The feeling of self loathing and doubt that has clouded my mind for a good chunk of my life.
Going into Parasite, it musically felt like an anxiety attack. So when I locked myself away in a dark room to write the lyrics, I tried to write a song that would contextually move the story told in Suffocate forward. While also pulling from personal experiences, I wanted to make clear that this entity that I refer to throughout the record, has latched onto my mind like a parasite.
Blindeye is a song about my current stance on mental illness. Everybody’s situation is different and they shouldn’t have to feel like their problems don’t matter in a world where they have no voice or faith.
This song is about a girl I used to know. I’m not going to get too specific, but I see this point in my life as my fall from grace. I crashed and burned for a long time. With this constant feeling that there was this hole in my soul just waiting to be whole again. I never got closure. I shut myself out from the world at this point, with nothing left to fill the void.
Roam is a song ultimately about my battle with depression. It’s a very personal song that in a way explains itself. For so long I’ve just wanted to be set free from this from this darkness that has consumed me for what has felt like an eternity.